(Pretend it’s still Sunday by the way cause it’s 12:00 and when you see this it’s Monday but yeah!) It’s been 11 days since my last post! I’ve either been busy or staying up late or doing other things. Today hasn’t been the best I would say. I feel like i’m falling back into depression or like i’m in a weird mood. Life is not always roses in the garden. I made this to help others and encourage them but today I feel like I need to be extra real with people right now especially in this time. It doesn’t help that I have been struggling with my sleep schedule. Today I hit snoozed on my alarm like 3 different times before I actually got up. I feel like it has been a struggle to get up and find motivation. The other night I started highlighting more of my favorite verses in my bible that I got like a month ago. It has room to take notes and such but I have found some inspiration from bible art on Pinterest. With that being said I have started to draw in my bible so here are some pictures of mine.
Along with my messed up sleep schedule and “laziness” I have felt so emotionally drained. Even with staying connected on zoom with my school counselor and youth group and doing therapy once a week I still feel an emptiness. I mean grief doesn’t happen for a little bit and then go away. It can be a long process but also you have those days where you are doing pretty good and other days you can’t do anything. This has been such an emotional roller coaster not only for me but others as well. One verse that I have been trying to reflect and meditate on is 2 kings 20:5 it says “Turn back, and say to Hezekiah the prince of my people, Thus says the LORD, the God of David your father: I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; behold, I will heal you; on the third day you shall go up to the house of the LORD.”
There has been many times where I go to pray and I’m just speechless or overwhelmed and I will just cry. Tears are also prayers to God when we are at a lost for words. If we just give everything to Jesus we will feel so much better. Whatever you are worried about or stressed about just let go and let God take care of it. One verse that comes to mind is Jeremiah 32:27 “Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh; is anything too hard for me?” There are other verses that say similar things. Nothing is too big or to small for God to not handle. He can take care of anything. Not only does he guide us in the right path but he is there to walk with us on our path.
Closing questions: what personal weaknesses can you let go of and have God take over? What are the greatest needs that you see in your everyday life? What are the things that are dominating your attention and thoughts today?